birthday for awhile
Wednesday, February 21st, 2007February 21st 2007 9:58pm
it was a perfect day and it still is.. It was raining, but sweet sweet Lord stop it at the right time, at time when i used to out for dining with fam. great fetucini au gratin, my fave evaa! hff, as if i want everyday of mine runs as like this.. like the birthday of mine.. only mine.. 
In this very peaceful nite, i sat in front of my notebook and think. think of how my life has change and emerged into something better. its developing within years i didn’t realize. many pains, sorrow, tears that actually brought me in this state of happiness in the end. eventually. many feelings that i have thought it was love but it wasn’t, hates turn into friendship, friends turns into your inside killer.
God know me so well. He create me like a maze. He take a piece of me, throw a piece of me so that i know what i’m looking for and put me back together. something don’t change as i watch carefully, it just turn into something worst than ever and some just stuck in the same old road. i cried for things that now as i realize it was stupid to cry for. i know what it means by: thing that can’t kill you makes us stronger.
life is just jack in a box. i dunno what’s gonna pop up in the next minute. still there is somethings i know and it won’t change. all the love around and everywhere that keeps coming in my direction. everybody cares in ways i couldn’t imagine. they want to control but they don’t want to be ruled upon. shy and yet shameless to show what they feel to me. strange and how peculiar they behave, talk or act. not that i don’t like it but based on my relationship before, these are rarely found or it’s just me that not walked far enough? i dunno. what i know for sure is they giving me such a strange affections and tender i never ever felt before. what are this souls? every year brought me to a greater state of level i can’t control. they liked being treated as hidden treasures where they are precious to me but don’t let other pirates saw them too and stole it away.
But anyway.. I have everything i need rite here with me.
My health, my lovely vever family, my productive youth, my unsual kind of thinking, my great sense in fashion (hahahaha), my mind that i could overdrive and nobody else could control, and very especially i’m sorrounded by my beloving friends. i’m moving on just like every other living mind. thanks for all, Lord.. thanks.. i kept repeating that word in amazes.
happy bithday, my dear dery…
enjoy your life as its golden!
