somebody to love
hey. i’m at ohlala plaza dago right now. one of my fave place since i can be here for whole day off.
as it is hot noon, ice cream is a must, and.. plain OJ. i sat in front of my fujitsu, listening to
india arie. tugas akhir is like hell, yet i love hell. haha.
i dont understand how the world works in me. nothing seems to go right in order cz of my carelessness. i gotta give a shit on it.
anyway, i’m so fragile right now. well maybe i was and always, just the time makes this feeling so strong.
i didn’t know what makes her bitching on me that time since i got no mistakes on her. what the hell, i don’t give a shit. she did always looking for trouble for no reason. but at that moment, that exact moment she was yelling, slamming stuff, shitting on me, i felt that living again. maybe it was too long for me living in such illness state. but i admit it to the world. i loves living the shadowy and dark valley. more peace, more comfortable, more alive. don’t ask me why. it was too long i’m lullabied in the so-human-world.
for now, i don’t give a damn about commitment, i’m not the need-string-attached kinda guy. but why she needs what i dont really need right now?
